Further and Farther
It feels so silly now that I start to share things and talk with more substance to people. No longer do I need to keep how I find someone annoying, how I feel something has changed in me, how CREAM SODA is so awesome!
March 12 - Calvin's Dinner + House Party. Haha, it was so fun, me cal paul alvy evy romy bats joey dale charie gem alan chad pete went to Cal's place for dinner. Nah, I'm lazy again so I'll keep this memory to myself :P Pretty much a lot of lols and doh and hahaha . Evy bats and I stayed overnight. Suffice to say, we did what we did best. DotA! Though we were supposed to have a Dark Night of the Soul ourselves :< Yesterday - dancepaaaaaad! I played a bit before leaving Cal's house. Haha, now I want one agaaain ;__; DASALGO -> Basketball -> Physical Checkup. We got stomped again because the other team has those lol-i-r-adikz. Bleh~ How can we play for fun if all the other teams play to win by putting imbaplayers for the whole game?! Fun trivia: Alvy and I were gonna procrastinate the checkup, but we found out that it's the last week for checkup. Haha that was cloooooose!
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I've realized things. Cal knew about it. It was fun to talk to Alvy. Meeting an old friend in the process and talking about things was also fun. I no longer have anything to hide. Well, maybe not everything, but. I want to be closer and closer to these people.
I want to help cal in his problems, or at least lend an shoulder for him to lean on.
I want to give Alvy the same courage and enthusiasm I have so I can have a clone!
I want to kick some sense into Paul because he's weird! (jk paul!)
I want to share the laughs and pains with Paul because of BRO-POWER!
I want evy to stop hating himself whatever the reason may be.
I want to keep having fun with the IMBABOYS and hunt for Lemurs!
I want to further my BRO-BOND with bats, so I can finally find out who's the heroine he's after xd
I want emy to stop being so silly and reall-ize (really + realize woo!) I <3 him :3
I want joey to be with us until the end because he's the best supporter I've ever had (in DotA), and he's also fun!
I want to spend more time with christian because he's my first friend <3
I want to maximize the time left I have with George, but that's before he decides to postpone his trip again!
...I want cirecire to be back.
...I want illya back.
No more aylli, just. Illya. I'm stronger now. I can stand on my own. But I realize, simply. That I need my illya back.
...she won't be back. I have to admit it. I hate to say it, but. There's no hurry. Fate will spinoff another fun, disastrous, dramatic, silly route sooner or later. So until then, I'll be me. Until my heart says that two-word phrase that started it all. Forward!
