[you doorknob]

Nah, not a long post. Not because I'm lazy.

...okay, maybeeee a bit because I'm lazy! But but I'm also doing 'something' else that I should've been working on since, like, a week ago so it's a fair deal!

Today was tutorial + quiz bee + etc etc. Tutorial was focused today so we all really did our jobs well, hurray for math game-ish practice! Well yeah, my pseudo-group was fired up for the quiz bee. The bad? I felt a bit tired (and hungry) during lunch that I didn't spent time w/ 'em later.

This post? Simply an eye opener. I was really touched today, why? Simple. CWTS ends today! Not that that's totally totally fun, but: Two of our students joined the art competition (lel) and and drew for me ;__;

But seriously speaking, yeah. Didn't expect that, and I really really appreciated it. I waaaaaaas gonna write up a post, but nah too lazy. 'sides, it'll be just a pseudo repeat of some older post! So yeah! <3 <3, I was already happy but that made it more awesome xd

I lol'd when one of 'em erased my name and replaced it with 'Paul' then gave it to him xd Haha. /gg, Project 14 days, let's go go a go!

I'm tired, but a bit disappointed too.

Is it because that I haven't been doing any progress to P14D:R's goals?
...or is it because I'm actually progressing to P14D:R's objectives?

Sleeeepy~

Here we go again. Another 'so called' projects, and it's the 'D' type. *recalls P:12d* Oh the failure of these types of projects. (doh)! Google can help, but, well, I don't think I really really explained what it was about. Haha

Well, let's hope we can do this. Fu fu fu! More info later later, but P14D:R is actually underway <3

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill these fears

There are a lot, lot of things I want to do. There are also a lot lot lot of things that are hindering me from doing them all. Sounds silly, but yeah. I really have little time to do anything, but I continue to waste it. Bad!

Well, maybe because of the mass earlier. Or finally because I've decided to step out further. Hmm?

Less and less procrastination. That means:

• ...less 'nah later etcetc'
• Less complaining and delaying
• GODDAMNED SOLITAIRE NOT GIVING ANY GOOD HANDS
• Less Plurk?!

And more along those lines. Because I really really want to. Simply because of that. Right now, I'm all excuses. ...and I don't want to be like that. I guess this is another sign of maturity - hey that's good. So...

...what's the sad bgm for?! [changes bgm] Idiot! So, I bid ya farewell, hopefully forever!

Stalker stalker, pants on fire! Well... Someone I have no idea is running through my blog for the past few days. I mean, man, stop reading my walls of unreadable text!

But this post is also for an update.

I [might] move back to WP.com. Haha, might. Not to mention, I'm cleaning up/trying to make themes again etc etc, so might be busy for the next few days. ...though I'm not only busy because of that. Haha, see ya guys <3

ALSO REVEAL THY SELF, LURKER FROM THE ABYSS!

I'm not going.
Because I've been waiting for a miracle.

I was gonna write about yesterday. But I don't feel like writing walls of text because of two things. One, I'm lazy! Two, I'll say it later. Haha

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, start of Lent. I served two masses in the morning, woo. Then I went early to school, hanged out with everyone etc etc. Also, I abstained from playing any games, meat and sweet food (almost tempted to buy Black Sunday Sundae!), and partial abstain from shiroshiro. But the points of that day were:

a) Bats bro fist. Hey what can I say, we're starting to brofist not because of dc, but really really bro-friends. lol, but yeah. I've started to dub him rico #2 :>
b) Rico #1. lol, I've met up with him on the way home and. Reported. lol xd But yeah, I got encouragement and the usual. And I've tried to help him this instance too, unlike in the past which was more of a one-sided sharing <3

c) Nah, there's no c. It's just today. Actually, a few minutes earlier. I discovered this awesome linky in my blog - Stats. (doh) And there contains more detailed reports on my blog. (doh) And. (doh) I always had a suspicion everyone knew about 'that' event from a few weeks ago.

(DOH) But I never realized the entirety of it. What do I mean? FF, so many hits from different people AND different plurk locations. x_x I've acknowledge that there are other people who knew but. . . Now that I know how many. I feel. So. Embarrassed. ;______;

Well yeah, that's why I didn't wrote more about yesterday. I mean, upon reading the stats. Damn. But also thinking about it now, they're kinda. Awesome. Well, as much as embarrassing as it may be, these people, well I don't know. Didn't do or saying anything about it. They're entitled to their opinions, but they didn't said something bad or something about me. So yeah, really <3 everyone since they're so awesome.

...but that doesn't stop me from being embarrassed that everyone read. fklajhkljahlk Chill aylli chill. I need to act normally, act normally . . .

...is suffering from mood swings.
...is bored.
...the whole change thing made me want to converse with people, but there aren't people to converse with.
...wants to play DotA DotA DotA
...needs a new hobby or a job or something that would make me spend my time more properly and efficiently.

...needs a hug.

...wants to be a vampire.
...wants to have magical powers.
...wants to have time powers.

...needs to change the past.

...blah
...bleh
...blue.

...is suffering from the blues.

...wants to sing a song.
...needs a song to sing.
...a song, huh?
...needs new songs.

...doesn't understand this post.

...changing to 'normal' feels so weird.
...wants to be normal-er without the weird feeling.
...nah.

...wants to play an eroge.
...wants to play an eroge.
...wants to play an eroge.

...idiot.

And so I come once again back to this bgm. The one which started this whole problem. Bad bad. . .

But through it, I can just recall. Reminiscence. ...and start a new. Things may be shaky after this but at least. I hope. We can be the same.

I'm still waiting. Bats promised me one wish. That until the curtains drop down, until the end. I'll be here until it's closing time. Yeah, but at least it won't be a lunar eclipse. I'd see the moon like I used to, I can never reach it but that's a given.

So I'm waiting. To close this book and keep it as the first first <3 and. A true end that has taught me a lesson. My first true end? Yeah.

...stupid bgm. I said I won't cry until the end of the book. So there's still the last leaves. Stop it! [I'm also regretting one other thing. It's okay if I fail mp1, but I can't really stand that I'm dragging someone along too.] The next few posts will be an ending to a book. And like most visual novels I've recently finished. Yeah. I need to reflect back before I can put it back in the shelf.

*breaths out*

It's too early, that's damn what it is! Well yeah, it is the first hour of the day. The first light.

And yeah. It's too early to cry. I need to watch 'till the end of the show before I cry.

...besides I'll fail objectp if I did it now.

Actually, it's my first. As far as I know, I think I've tried to look out for one in the past, but felt sleepy and didn't managed to watch/see one. But I have a question though.

What did you just say?! Yeah, pure cheese.

I asked Rico for an advice.
I tried to write a plan before hand.

But in the end, it was one thing that decided it all. I simply wrote what my heart was telling me. Sorry Rico, sorry myself, I scratched all of the hints you gave me and went on my heart's path. La la la~

I just basked the last 30 minutes under our pseudo-garden, watching the moon. It feels so pretty, as if the moon's beauty has been spread all over the sky. But. The skies themselves hinder the very beauty of the moon itself. So I- would like to see the moon in its purest form, and not clouded by. clouds.

...illya you're so cheesy.