[you doorknob]

...is suffering from mood swings.
...is bored.
...the whole change thing made me want to converse with people, but there aren't people to converse with.
...wants to play DotA DotA DotA
...needs a new hobby or a job or something that would make me spend my time more properly and efficiently.

...needs a hug.

...wants to be a vampire.
...wants to have magical powers.
...wants to have time powers.

...needs to change the past.

...blah
...bleh
...blue.

...is suffering from the blues.

...wants to sing a song.
...needs a song to sing.
...a song, huh?
...needs new songs.

...doesn't understand this post.

...changing to 'normal' feels so weird.
...wants to be normal-er without the weird feeling.
...nah.

...wants to play an eroge.
...wants to play an eroge.
...wants to play an eroge.

...idiot.

[edited 02-17-09, removed hidden comments because plan was revealed]

Today was the first step of many for my special special surprise for valentines day. Codenamed VDS'09, this is the first step which will open up the whole pseudo project's status until final growth! (Okay didn't make sense!)

The first step is obvious - gain information and use it well. I went to MoA with Andree today after CWTS to go look around at bookstores for the thing I'm looking for. And at the same time, Andree was giving me hints too <3 We saw a book we both agreed good, not only currently, but also in the future. So I bought it! -660php, for a much more ++ in the future! Well, maybe!

I also bought some supplies for the initial 'test' which I conducted soon in the day. Or rather, midnight! I had fun - I waited for my mom to be asleep (or atleast half asleep), then proceeded to the kitchen. I prepared the ingredients prior, then I was struck by lightning. (more...)

Last week was just the planning. Now is taking it in to action! Well, sorta! What do I mean? Well, looking back this week...

TREDONE symbol of faith. I posted my essay on a post before this, so if you're interested go take a look! Basically, it's a start of me daring to do something outside what I should usually do. Instead of taking the usual cross or bible as a symbol, guess what? An ATA cable woo! Weird, but true. I did this, knowing we would present it to class. I did this, knowing I would be different. And a whole lot different from me a year ago, definitely! Even though it's a daring step, it was a good one, I think. It helped me gain a lot of self confidence when with others, especially with unknown people. It also makes me look more weirder, but that's okay!

There's also FORMDEV (notice the subject trends, lol). Last FORMDEV I dared to reveal more than usual should. I've told them my kinda dream. I've told them about the ATA-cable. But more importantly, they got the impression I'm changing like this because there's a girl I like. Well, I did say 'maybe' when they were asking, so maybe!

Is it really? Fu fu fu. I've also made, or rather remade an old plan, a very special plan that will raise everyone's affection points. But that's if I'm up to the task, but I'll work especially hard. Haha

DASALGO is like just as planned. Fu fu fu, but I have to sacrifice someone. Sorry Alvin!

Today there was a seminar for us SPRINTees. I finally (half) decided, I'm going to SPRINT till the end! I looked back at my first impressions when I heard of SPRINT, if the current SPRINT isn't up to my expectations then... I should make them up to par by commandeering it by myself! lol, that's going to really extreme side of it, but yeah. As my adviser said, I should go out the comfort zone if I want to change, so this is one of 'em.

It's hard. But I won't hesitate. I said 'half' to SPRINT because I'm going to need to take a bit time to adjust. Today was a start, like last week was a start for this whole change. What do I mean? Today I'm pretty much the me last year. And comparing today to yesterday and the other days? I like the new me.

But I'm going to dare more than this. The ultimo plano which gives ++ affection points. Wooo stay tuned! <3 (Won't reveal yet because someone reads this blog again :D)

A warm (not exactly directly towards me) hug.

A sweet goodbye with a waving hand and a bright smile.

And finally, a quick encounter which ended up in haste. ...regardless so, we parted with a good bye.

- - -

All I need is for something to push me. And these occurrences fit perfectly <3 They help me regain my self confidence to push forward this whole change. But probably the more major factor would be--

New heroines! Well. . . We'll see, but first we have to befriend then unlike to my previous ones which ended up in utter failure.

La la la~
Don'cha think it's fun?

Note: No, I wasn't referring to PW, and the CGs were barely related. Expect a PW post later though!

Short speedwrite. More like bursting out of emotions, but w / e! Interlude from New Year Reso posts!

There's a simple question I have to ask. To myself, but I want to hear your opinions about it too. And perhaps, maybe you too can reflect on the same matter.

Have I chosen my friends correctly?

From time to time, it's something that I think of. Sure, I can say being with everyone is fun. But is it an absolute matter? Like a mirror, there's always two sides of it. Well, it's fun sometimes, but there are too times of sadness. Ever since a pseudo betrayal back then in the past, I've always been conscious of the people I'm around. (more...)

...but we never really got to do it, huh?

Speedwrite! Unlike other posts, this is the first time I'll be doing a quick, timed write up. What's the point? That way I won't be lazy not to write what I wanted to write about! I'm actually in the process of /c/rusading at the same time, so that's probably the reason. :D

Graphika Manila '08. Christian and I was 'wut.' when we first heard about it. At the same time, eager becaaause it's something we don't know! So yeah, we had the Moomedia Early-buyer's discount. But it's still 650php, ahaha. So this past past Saturday we went to MoA after our NSTP-CWTS class.

Raaaage. Apparently. For some reason. Actually - no reason at all. We walked to MoA ! Well, at least we started from Edsa and not from Vito Cruz. Blame Christian <.< (more...)